My emotions are heavy during this update. It’s been a great month, don’t get me wrong. However, recently one of my closest friends, a childhood cancer patient, Amanda Peebles has been in the hospital and has been in the worst shape. I am torn – I love this girl so much, we’ve had so many great times. I see what she faces daily and I hurt for her, it’s not fair. I realize that it’s her choice to continue her battle or choose to leave this earth for a higher power and ultimately pain free. I was very lucky to have talked to hear daily for almost two weeks prior to her recent hospitalization, including many conversations at wee hours of the morning. I almost feel as if Amanda is partially my daughter. I can’t even tell you how much it hurts to experience this, but I love every minute of being close to her. I am working on getting back to Denver to see her next week and I pray that I can see her again despite her recent health conditions.

This is new to me; I’ve gotten close with patients before but never this close. In every way, I thank God for it and I really wouldn’t have it any other way. But that does not make it any easier. Knowing Amanda has given me a perspective on life that I wouldn’t trade for the world. Thanks to Stacy Moriarty (Founder of the Miracle Party) I was introduced to her and it’s been such a great divine experience. However, this is the first time I’ve found myself hurting so much emotionally. I love this girl and I will do whatever I can for her, she knows this and this is why we are so close. I want the best for her, the very fact that this might mean she leaves this earth is so emotionally wrecking, but ultimately her decision. I support her completely and I am prepared to do whatever I have to; I guess that’s the feeling I love. Her family is great and I’m so glad I can be friends with them. Right now is a tough time, and I ask you all to pray for her and her family. I love you Amanda!